I don't think Confucius is going to say anything in this blog post, but I certainly feel confused. I've rather had the props knocked out from under me, and after two years of struggling to understand and accept my role as gramma/caretaker, that one is gone, and I have to get used to another one, that includes mother in law, and farther away gramma.
I know real life isn't "clear-cut and trimmed off, as they are in novels"**, there are struggles every day and I am finding I don't adjust very quickly when I'm stressed and tired. I'm still raising a couple of teenagers too, thank you very much! And they like to have me around part of the time, even though they don't act like it most of the time.
It is very hard to work with toddler attention span and teenage attention span at the same time, because it IS at the same time, kids don't take turns when they want attention.
So, here we are. I am no longer "full time" gramma. I won't have Zane around everyday to enjoy and clean up after, and take pictures of, and blog about, and get exasperated with.
I will have him some days, and I will enjoy and appreciate him more. But my life has changed so this blog will change. I will be able to do more things that I enjoy. So, I'm hoping this blog will reflect some of those things, now, too. I like to write, scrapbook, crochet, knit, take photographs, chronicle my kids' lives, and who knows what else will pop up in here. There will still be Zane around some, but the rest of us are still here, too. There is more of ME here, too. So, as I'm still coming to terms with what I'm going to do with myself, mind and body, now. I hope you'll enjoy being along for the ride
**if any one knows where I got this quote from, I will send them a homemade prize, up to five prizes, just in case there are hundreds out there that I don't know about.