Ten days ago, I posted what I figured would be my last "cancer/recovery" post, but I was wrong.
THIS will be the last post.
I had an appointment with my oncologist today. I had previously done the x-ray he asks for. I had blood drawn, my blood pressure, oxygen levels and temperature taken. Then we sit down for the routine, any new symptoms, pain, weakness, change? Are there any questions? Are you eating well?
I get my lungs checked, my lymph nodes checked. This is all standard procedure.
Then she goes out to bring back the doctor who comes in all smiles, "this a a milestone, this is the place we've been working for". "You're two years past treatment, we don't need to check you so closely"
If I was to have a recurrence it would have happened by now.
He didn't ask me the 40 million questions about how I am living my life like he usually does. He just gently reminded me that I fought through a horrible time and now it's over.
I feel weird.
It's like somebody just gave me the keys to the rest of my life. I feel like someone is letting go of a string and I'm flying away.
There's a little piece in there that is frightened with the letting go.
I guess it's just hard to believe it's real.
I AM CANCER FREE!!!
I still have 6 month check ups for the next year or so.